Saturday, February 21, 2009

Long Recovery Road

I had upper and lower jaw surgery on October 23, 2008 so it's been almost 4 months. I had taken 3 weeks off work to heal and ever since I've been back it has been insanely busy and stressful. The entire year before the surgery was stressful because I was fighting with my insurance company. So, here I am finally on the "other side" and you'd think I should be so happy. But somewhere along the road ... I have become severely depressed. I mean, clinically depressed. I have nothing left to give and I feel so empty. I don't know what happended except to say I truly think your body and emotions can actually shut down from stress. I feel like I have no happy ability left. It's awful. Last Thursday I was actually supposed to get my braces off, but I had to serve on jury duty. So I still have them on - I'll have to reschedule for this upcoming week. Shortly before surgery I switched orthodontists (as well as surgeons) and this orthodontist works quite differently than my other one. He is going to take off my braces, put a permanent (for a year) retainer on the bottom and a clear retainer on the top, but I'll still see him monthly for about a year ... but without the braces. I think its all very interesting. I want to get my teeth whitened immediately following braces removal, but supposedly am supposed to wait 2 weeks because of sensitivity. Forget that though - I do not want to have to show off a brand new smile without the brite whiteness. I'm getting it all done on the same day.

Anyways, regarding the depression - I'm going to start going back to therapy next week. I seriously need help.